My past--Evelyn's history, part one

It seems like so long ago now when I met Emanuel. He had been looking for someone, someone from his home country Greece, where he was the vampire king. He was charming, elusive, a bit of an edge of danger, and my type. Definitely my type. We hit it off on our walk along the beach... And after a rough patch, we realized we were in love. He proposed and three weeks later we were married. But before the wedding, Emanuel wanted me to become a vampire, to be with him forever. It was something I was not sure of at first, but I was scared I'd lose him, so I let him turn me. We created a bond so strong, he was always aware of where I was, how I felt, if I was scared. I even made him a charm that would teleport him to me at any moment. I thought... I was in love. That life was perfect.

But underneath laid a foundation of lies. I could not trust him. He would say he loved me, but then...I knew of his other life. The one he manipulated me with. It was that underlying mistrust that led me into Silas' arms. Yes, at the time, I was married. Yes, Silas and Alyce were together. It was wrong for us to do that to them. I should have left Emanuel first, he should have left Alyce, but we didn't intend to fall in love either. It started off as just sex. Hot...passionate...kinky sex. But soon...it became more. He loved me and I loved him, and I knew I couldn't stay with Emanuel. I had to fake it around him, and he knew it. He would say things like "Why do I feel like I'm losing her?" I knew I couldn't keep up the lie, so one night, I told him about Silas and me having an affair. He was torn up, and still wanted me, but then I told him we were in love. I destroyed him that night... And right after I had to tell Alyce, though it was something I resented Silas for later. He should have been the one to tell her- not me. But I did, and she was devastated. She attacked both of us for all to see... and then everyone knew of our treachery.

I had to escape. I knew I was bonded to Emanuel and as a vampire, I was faced with the eternity of him knowing my every move... I'd died to be with him, and I died inside knowing my everlasting fate. I did the only thing I could think of-- I called upon a demon. A powerful one, from the Ever After. This particular demon owed me a favor, and was therefore forced to do my bidding. I asked him to make me mortal again, and he had no choice. He drained me of my vampire blood, and I died again... When I woke, I found my powers had been rejuvenated. I could cast spells greater than ever before. I figured that being turned into vampire had weakened me, and my new stronger energy was it being reborn... Then I went back to Silas, as me.

It never got easy for us. There were too many secrets between Silas and me, and in the end it was my mistrust of HIM that broke us up. I loved him, I was happy, but it was short-lived. How can you trust someone who cheated on their last girlfriend? Because don't you always wonder if he's going to do it to you? He had claimed to love Alyce, and slept with me. How did I know he wasn't doing the same to me? Rumors upon rumors flew, accusations came out, and it consumed me. Finally, on a tearful night, we said goodbye.

For months I wanted him back, but I'd hurt him too many times, and he was right not to let me back into his life. I didn't want to give up hope... but I finally let him go. It was hard, but I moved on.